Everlasting (cecilia)

[ALERIS THAIN ATWAN]

[--I'VE BECOME SO NUMB--]
I CAN'T FEEL YOU THERE
B E C O M E S O T I R E D S O M U C H M O R E A W A R E

It was quiet as he made his way through the catacombs, and he liked it that way, but as he made his way through the Hall of Memories, his mind was on one thing only...Cecilia. They had many good times down here, and it was all rushing through him like a tidal wave of emotions. He hated it. Though he knew that he had hurt her, he had broke the girls heart by leaving her for Panthea, he didn't care. Well...that was a lie, he did care, he cared deeply about Cecilia. He might even love her, but he couldn't tell her that, it would complicate things, not to mention put her in danger as well as himself from the dark sorceress. Thea wasn't the most forgiving creature on the planet, and she sure wouldn't like it if she knew that Fabian was thinking about his ex. But, he and Cecilia had a past, a great past at that, and he couldn't help himself when he was in the places where they used to go so often to be alone, when they weren't in his chambers.

Thea called her the scorned woman, and in a way he supposed thats what it appeared like to outside eyes. Other people had even told him the same thing, he had pushed the young love of his existence to the side as soon as Panthea opened her arms to him. It was the lure of her power, and the sexiness that was Thea that had done it. Not that Cecilia wasn't beautiful, she indeed was, but there was just something about the young sorceress that got to him. In more ways than one, and he wanted to have her for his own from the moment he saw her. It was sad in a way what he had done, but did anyone expect anything less from the vampire king? Probably not. He knew of his reputation, in fact he loved that people saw him as a heartless bastard. It was what he wanted, he didn't want anyone to know of his weaknesses. Cecilia being the biggest one...though if Thea or anyone else found that out, be that Pandora...or the werewolves...or anyone, he knew they would use it against him, and hurt her because of it.

Leaning against a crumbling wall he rubbed his fingers against his eyes, they were twitching again, something that always seemed to happen when he was feeling a strong emotion, be that agitation, or nerves, or whatever, it always irritated him to no end. " why do I let her get to me...why don't I just let it go?" he grumbled under his breath, wanting nothing more than to just push all thoughts out of his mind, and find something else to do with his time. It irritated the hell out of him. Bending down he grabbed a large stone that had fallen from the wall and with all his strength through it as hard as he could down the hall, hoping it connected with something..hoping it shattered another wall...anything to take his frustration out. He needed an outlet...and it wasn't yet time for him to go to Thea...he needed something to get his mind off of everything else. He needed blood, or torture...or sex...something...anything.

WORDS?! 544
TAGGED?! Cecilia
LYRICS?! numb by linkin park
MOOD?!irritated
OUTFIT?! pants and a leather coat
NOTES?! <3
CREDIT?! dreamer boy of caution 2.0! don't steal!